My Health Crash Recovery Story
The worst and best thing that has ever happen to me. So far…
It all started years ago…
I’ve always been very tough on myself, and always had high expectations and strong desires to achieve the highest level of whatever it was I decided I wanted to accomplish. Naturally, I loved to work and perfect things, whatever it took I was willing to give it my best, my all. If I wanted something (and I wanted a lot of things) I was ready to go for it all the way without holding anything back. Doesn’t sound so bad, right? I mean these qualities helped me achieved great heights in sports, music, career and obtain a lot of material things I wanted. But, while I didn’t know it at the time, I was slowly digging myself into deep dark place. Then it finally happened, I hit rock bottom. I hit it so hard it shook me to my core and changed my entire reality.
The Five Phases of My Road to Recovery
PHASE TWO
It was about the forth month after the initial crash I started to feel a bit better. “The resting, sleeping, eating frequently and supplements were helping.” I thought. Another couple of weeks goes by and I actually started to feel somewhat normal and back to myself again. like a surge of life came back to me and I was beyond thrilled. I thought to myself "I’m back! Now let’s get back on all my work and routines!” Man was I wrong…
Since I was feeling way better, I decided to jump right back into my workout routine. For the last three months I was so inactive I couldn’t wait to do my workouts and play tennis again, and get myself back in shape. I also haven’t been sexually active so I decided it was also time to have some much needed fun as well. For the first few days I felt great. I was ready to forget the awful experience, move on and continue back where I left off before the crash.
By the end of the week I felt that awful feeing started to come back, along with all the horrible symptoms, and a whole bunch of new ones. I started to get panic attacks during and after sex and masturbation. I started to have major blood sugar regulation issues. I crashed again, and was bed bound.
Even though this time around the symptoms lessened more quickly than the initial crash, but now the symptoms are there all the time and never fully go away. I started to get more concerned and started having Health Anxiety because every strange body sensation could be another possible symptom. I was always googling symptoms. I looked into alternative doctors who might be able to help me, for the next few months I kept going in and out of mini crashes and struggled with old and new symptoms coming and going, and I saw just about every type of doctors out there and had every type of labs and check ups done, I experimented with every type of health diets and supplements. Although I wasn’t making any real progress towards recovery, I was learning a lot about conditions that were related to this type of health crash I was experiencing.
PHASE FOUR
By this time it was around 1 year since my health crash, and things are a lot better overall. The key turning point was when I decided to accept where I was, and regardless of the setbacks I stuck to focusing on my recovery and living a consistent healthy lifestyle. The healing was gradual but powerful, one tiny sliver at a time, parts of my health and vitality were slowing returning to me. I have stopped having crashes and panic attacks and I can pretty much function normally. I still can’t really push too hard with workouts, or be overly emotional or simulated, but I was doing okay. From what I suffered through in the last year, I was not complaining. I saw the long awaited light at the end of the dark tunnel…
From that point forward, my recovery journey was steady and consistent and I felt a little better in every way daily. I had gained weight and body fat for the first time in my life due to the decrease in workout intensity and playing sports, although that really bothered me, I would remind myself to stay on track with my recovery and let my body signal me when it is ready to do more.
About another 3 more months passed by, now it’s been 15 months since my health crash started.
HERE and NOW
I have been fully recovered from the health crash for quite some time now, and feeling better and better everyday. I started a health & hormone optimization protocol along with a balanced nutrition plan and workout routine. The health crash and my recovery journey experience has given me so much intense contrast and at the same time so much new found happiness and love for myself, my life and my dreams. I’m here to share my story in hopes that it can bring information, motivation and inspiration for others who are going through similar experiences.
- Jaden Christopher